Friday, July 2, 2010

Silly Me

During that period of time, I guess I worked too much in a virtual world that I did not know how to return to the real world. Silly me, I was being a fool and believed the impossible. I thought miracle would happen but no, it only happens in the virtual world. No matter how and what I did, there ain’t miracle.

Consequently, I had always had this depressing aura released that my close friends started to feel awkward around me. I was very well aware of that that I started to avoid them: I did not hang around much them like I used to.

It was until that night when I could not take it longer. That was harsh. Each and every word pierced through my heart. No doubt, that text was a good closure. It was harsh but, at the same time, good.

I cried every night to sleep since that incident and as far as I believe, that night was the last night I cried to sleep.

Fortunately, I did not have to go to work the next day as it was still a holiday. For the whole day, I spent time with myself and tried so hard to focus only me, myself and I: What do I want? What I do not want? What do I like? What do I dislike? What makes me smile? What makes me cry? What will make me happy? And what will make me unhappy?

I literally forgot who I am.

Forgot Angelina.

I forgot me.

4 comments:

xiaofu said...

hihi, nanged for u... :)

and be strong... tough time don't last... be tough... 加油!

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Maxloon120 said...

Don't be so sad k?..Chill out and do think from the positive side =)

goingkookies said...

Hey girl..

you sound like you're in a spot.. i think, each and every one of us do go through that dark moments every once in awhile.. even me.

hehe. My bf even says he's never met anyone so depressed before in his life!

Whatever it is, just always remember, there is a rainbow AFTER every storm... hang in there k.

HUGS!!