Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Responsibility

Honestly, I have no sense of direction. It is in my gene. I had gone to countless of job interviews and being lost and at the same time, picky, I ended up jobless for more than a month now. However, I am enjoying it though I had been burning super big holes lately. If you know me well, I am not a big spender until I came back from Shanghai.

I bought a Tissot watch and guess what? I bought an iPhone!

Fortunately, I have an amount of fund that may just enough for me to move to Kuala Lumpur to start off another new journey. I wanted to do another life changing experience in Europe but due to some technical difficulties, I could not log into the system anymore. Not wanting to waste my time, I decided to take the next path: to get a job in Kuala Lumpur. However, knowing my background, of course my family members, especially my grandparents, would not allow me to leave my hometown and work in another land. I know I am still in Malaysia but to them, so long it is not Sibu, it is another land.

Coming back really motivates me even more to work in a bigger city than staying home. With a lot of complications between my parents that consequently, bring a lot of dangers to her soon, I am more determined to get a job in Kuala Lumpur. I am not afraid to say that he is totally screwed. Like totally.

I have my own personal problems but honestly, I really have more matters that I have to look into. I was once very determined to make it work out between us even if we ended up as friends again but since the counterparty ain’t taking any shit of it, I gotta focus on refining my family situation.

I could not care less about him but, I could not leave her and another him alone. Once another him finished his diploma, he would continue a degree over in Kuala Lumpur. At that time, she would be coming along as well. Since another another him had already started working in Kuala Lumpur, I was thinking, maybe we would all be moving to Kuala Lumpur. Therefore, I want to start my career in Kuala Lumpur not for myself.

But mostly for my family...

2 comments:

goingkookies said...

hugs!!

Don't know what's the situation with your life and family but I hope you'll be able to work things out for the greater good for you and your family.

Fumoffu said...

Thanks :)