Friday, July 18, 2014

The Short Story

She had been through a lot. And she thought she knows how to make a wise decision. Unfortunately, she was wrong.


There was this man and this woman. They both met under an unexpected situation. They ended up being close friends. One thing led to another. A lot of things had happened between them and they made it through together, thick and thin. However, there was one problem. The man did not know if he wanted to bring the friendship to another level whereas the woman was willing to take the chance. She was just waiting for him. Since the man was indecisive, he left the woman hanging.

Waiting is painful. Letting go is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering. And that was what happened to her.

She did not know what to do. Should she wait or let go? She was lost. She was going insane. This dragged on for many months. She was pushed away many times but did not falter and willing to give chances.

Until the woman finally exploded!

If God did not give you what you wanted, it is not because you are not worth it. It is because you deserve even better. A lot of suffering came from going after those that do not belong to us.

Since he does not belong to her, why would she allow him to keep hurting her?


There are two primary choices in life; to accept conditions as they exist or to accept the responsibility for changing them. She decided to accept the latter choice.

She made the decision to put whatever there was between them to a stop. Yes, she made the first move. They both made it clear that they will remain friends. Of course it was not easy for her.

However, she knew that once she knew which is the right path, how long it takes to get there does not quite matter. We are tougher than we think. One day, when you look back, you will realise that you have walked a path you have never thought you would.

As the time passed, she was doing really well. She was able to move on even though she constantly met him and they constantly went out together. She was able to do it because she took control of her heart and mind instead of vice versa. “We are just friends. Nothing more. Nothing less.” kept ringing inside her head.

It went on for another few more months until another man showed up.


Knowing he will lose the attention that was once his, he decided to get it back. It did not turn up well because the woman had already moved on while the man regretted the chance he did not take, relationship he was afraid to have and the decisions he waited too long to make.

One ugly event led to another.

Remembering  all the little things they had gone through together, the woman took the chance to salvage the friendship. However, the sad thing about betrayal is that it never comes from an enemy. She received the blame, hurtful words and insults in return for her kindness.

That’s it! The woman had enough from dealing with senseless matters.


There are two reasons why people want to change; either they have learned too much or they have suffered enough. Which was her reason? Freaking both!

She understood that everything she is going through is either a present or a lesson. In this case, it was the lesson she had learned. We fall so, we can learn how to pick ourselves up. She is going to surround herself with people who know her worth. She does not need too many people in her life. Just a few real ones who appreciate.

Appreciate those who appreciate you.  Help those who need you. Let go of selfish scumbags.

Monday, July 7, 2014

Day 3: Singapore

What did I do on my last day in Singapore after my older brother left?

We did not do much basically.


We checked out from the hotel we stayed the night before to a hostel that I had booked. This hostel is a capsule-inspired hostel. I thought sleeping inside the upper capsule is fun but, I was completely wrong about it! Why? First, my mom is not young anymore. She cannot climb up and down the capsule. Second, both of us frequent toilet. Therefore, we had to climb up and down in the middle of the night. That sucks.

Lesson learned: get the lower capsule!


After we had settled down, we decided to go hunt for food. We met my baby brother’s friends and went to one of his frequent restaurants. It serves cheap food.


After lunch, we went to walk around Bugis Mall, if I am not mistaken. There, my mom and I bought the same waist bag. Thanks to this trip in Singapore, I realised that a waist bag is more convenient. I was carrying a sling bag during the trip and it hurt my shoulder to the max!

Another lesson learned: use backpack or waist bag when you are traveling!


That night we decided to have our dinner at Saizeriya again. It is one of the cheapest restaurants with good food.


After dinner, we bade my baby brother farewell. Since it was still early, my mom and I walked around the mall. We went to Daiso Japan. Not much difference from the ones we have in Malaysia. The only different I guess is the colour. It is black and blue in Singapore though. Ours is pink and white if I am not mistaken.

Honestly, it was a fruitful trip. I did not get to meet any of my friends though I ran into Chee Seng. I guess I will go back to Singapore again probably somewhere next year.