Home ♥

It was great to be back home last weekend. It was short but nice.

Though I may seem homeless in Penang but, I still have a place called ‘home’ and there was a saying that goes ‘Home is where the heart is.’

I was back home to celebrate my grandfather’s birthday.

My grandparents had been taking care of my siblings and I very well when our parents were outstation for work purposes. I was under their care since I was twelve.

Then I left my homeland to West Malaysia after I had finished my Form 5 and since then, I had not moved back for good. After I graduated, I went further to Shanghai to do my management traineeship. However, I had always kept in touch with them every week over the phone. This practice is still kept up until now.

My grandfather was obviously very delighted to see most of us, the grandchildren, back home to celebrate his birthday.

Our presence is the best birthday gift for him.

I had pledged to go back every year for his birthday. Let us face the fact that he is not young anymore and that I must spend more time with him.

Adding to what had happened to me recently, it felt great to be home. It made me realised that these people are the people who truly love and truly accept for who I am and also the people who will never ever leave me.

I really thank Lord to have blessed me with such a beautiful family.

Forgiveness

Anyone can hold a grudge but, it takes a person with character to forgive.

When you forgive, you release yourself from a painful burden.

Forgiveness does not meant what happened was okay and it does not mean that person should still be welcomed in your life.

It just means you have made peace with the pain and are ready to let it go.

I am glad that I have made peace with the pain.

The Beginning of The End

So let me get this straight.

 

This is the beginning of the end.

 

I am closing one door and will not stare at it anymore because I know somewhere in this room that I am stuck in, another door has opened for me.

 

“I don’t buy it”

Just came across this article that a friend had shared on Facebook. The name of the article actually caught my attention - The last word: He said he was leaving. She ignored him.

As I read through, what Laura faced was what I faced four months ago.

He said “I don’t have feelings for you anymore. I want to break off temporarily”

Similarly, the words came at me like a speeding fist. Though I neither rage at him nor threaten him, I was not able to react like she did. To recover and compose it myself and say “I don’t buy it.”

One must be really strong and determined to reach to that level, I guess.

However, let’s put it this way:

What if it’s a woman who said “I don’t love you anymore”, will a man duck or fight?

I wonder..