Depressed. Really depressed.
I do realize that today is the second day of 2008. It had been a tough time for me but I made it through. Knowing those couples outside got to go out together to celebrate New Year Eve could really kill me. I was really upset that I could not celebrate anything last month with my boy. Sighh.. What would happen when he is going over to Brisbane to study? That will be 2 years. I really hope it won't be worse; I know it will. Sighh.. I've already planned not to go back hometown at all this year so as to celebrate everything with my baby. I would not want to miss anything anymore. I can't afford to fly to Australia at that time, can I?