Life, A Bitch And An Angel!

I have to admit that ‘life’ is a bitch but at the same time, it is an angel.

It has its weird ways of doing its own things and at its own pace.

If you learn to adore it, it will bless you with rewards. Piss it off and it will screw you nevertheless.

What I want to emphasise here is that, whatever comes to you, regardless an opportunity or a challenge, take it or face it respectively.

Bad things do happen in our lives. It is normal. However, it will not be permanent. It will pass. It is not wrong to be a muppet. You can grieve and be weak for as long as you want – do it at your own comfortable pace. Take your time. Nonetheless, you must promise yourself that you will move on.

Always remember that, if it does not end the way you want it to be, it is not the end yet. Therefore, keep going. Keep fighting. The destination is not the main point. The journey is.

Personally I had been through the highest as well as the lowest moments in my life and I know they will not stop knocking on my door. Yet, do keep in mind that happiness and sadness do not come together. They are practically enemies. When one leaves, only there is enough space for the other to come.

Hence, if you do not open the door for sadness to leave, how will happiness come in?

At any rate, these are just my personal views about life through my own little bit and pieces of my experience.

Butterflies In My Stomach!

When I wanted to text you...

When I saw your text...

When I wanted to call you...

When I received your call...

When I am ready to go out to see you...

When I am about to see you...

When I see you...

When I think about the time we spent together...

When I think about you...

...there are always butterflies in my stomach!

However...

When I did not get your reply...

And you never called...

And I did not get to see you...

And I knew, all along, you do not reciprocate the feelings I have for you...

...there are always heartbreaks.

To Fall In Love Again?

Facebook is amazing.

It is amazing how I am still able to look back all the posts posted on my timeline as far as back in year two oh oh seven.

Of course there are people who entered my life and then left. However, there are still a bunch of people who entered my life and stay, up until now.

Sometimes I have to look back to learn what I had missed so as not to repeat the same mistake again in the future. I only look in the rear view mirror to glance back remembering the memories and mandating that I will not make the same mistakes. Of course, I constantly look forward making sure I do not miss a thing in the present!

However, there is a saying that goes ‘Sometimes in order to appreciate your future, you must remember the past.’

I do accept the fact that there are things or people that I cannot get back again, ever. I guess ‘We do not meet people by accident. They are meant to cross our path for a reason’ really hit me.

I will never forget that when one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look at the closed door for too long that we do not see the one that has already been opened for us.

Therefore, I am now entering the new door of happiness.

No, I am still single but I am looking forward to fall in love again. Yes, I know I was betrayed and hurt real bad in the past relationship but this shall not stop me to fall in love again. This shall not change my nature. However, I shall change my view in getting into a relationship.

Why do I want to be in a relationship?

Not so that I will be happy.

Not so that I feel completed.

Not so that I feel good about myself.

All these perceptions are inane! They will only aggravate the relationship between you and your other half.

I learned, in a hard way, that happiness comes from within. I am responsible on my own happiness. I shall feel good about myself. I am complete with myself. Also, I shall never ever forget my own value when I am loving my significant other.

If I do not love myself, what rights do I have to expect him to love me? If I am not happy with myself, what rights do I have to expect him to be happy with me? If I am not enjoying my own company, what rights do I have to expect him to enjoy my company?

In a nutshell, I shall stop whingeing about the other half not being able to make me happy and all those shits.

I want to be in a relationship because I want to share my wonderful life with him. Also, to fall in love with him, I must fall in love with his lifestyle as well because to love someone, I must love his life too. Else, how is he able to share his life with me?

Therefore, do not judge me by my past. I am not in the past anymore.

Accept me for who I am because this is me today.